I am an impulsive person by nature, been working on curbing my enthusiasm, but hasn’t yet succeeded in it…But seriously what was I thinking when i was signing up for blog…oh i remember, my friend shafi’s blog, which by the way is still going strong…You know i felt i had things to say and finally i have a place to say them, but now after the first initial rush, my life is either running for boring and slow or I just don’t work well having things i think i want…I mean i think i know the purpose of me writing this piece, I am hoping by some miracle, I would inspire myself to come here daily and post things…Maybe the issue is that I don’t look at my life as analytically as much as when I was younger…Maybe life is zooming by me too fast and I can’t catch glimpses of things i used to notice before…Or is it that I am afraid if i reflect too much I might see things I don’t like about myself!…I have always been my harshest critic, many people are too, but i have always hoped I can improve myself at any give time if I have the desire…So hopefully i would change my lazy-writing attitude and utilize this blog i created for myself….Khadra
My Life My Rule
As I sit here today, I can’t help but think about “words of wisdom’s” a phrase uttered so easily on so many lips…They are huge parts of our lives so integrated into everything we say and do that we sometimes don’t realize we using them or passing it along to the next generations…I had to stop and think which “words” I heard over my lifetime span which affected me and remained on my mind…Does our experience in life makes us more attached to certain “sayings” than others?…Those of us, who had a bitter life experiences possibly, are prone to those “words of wisdom” dripping with cynical believes…On the other end of the spectrum, we have those who had the protected life and repeat the “words of wisdom” they heard from their parents and those of familial connections to themselves…And there are those few who take the “words of wisdom” and give them a unique interpretation for those words spoken so long ago…I couldn’t stop thinking about what would be those few precious words I would leave to those who follow me…Those words weren’t just any words they would be my legacy my own achievement of immortality in the minds of those to come after me…And then it hit me, my words of wisdom is actually there are no words of wisdom…Wisdom is gained through experiencing and living and no one can prepare someone else for those things…My words of wisdom “live your life, have a rainbow of emotions and accept each one of them into your soul, and ultimately it isn’t as bad as we thought we had it”…Those would not be the words on my tombstone, but they would be the words I hope I am remembered to live by…My words of wisdom are my formula for life…The End
Reflective Topic
These few written words are not in-depth analysis of humans but a story merely written to express thoughts to be shared with others. Some of us are at the edge of changes personally or professionally or both. Others are at the gates of youth and optimism. And others are at the pinnacle of reaching peace within themselves and achieving wisdom. And there are those among confusion is their middle name and traveling aimlessly in life. These are the solid rainbow colors of ones’ life creating remarkable shaped painting with varying effect. Each one of us sometime in life maybe in past, present, or future, encounter individuals that astonished, startled, mind-boggled, and surprised us or will do all those things. They come and go through our lives, as would a wave through water, and leave us with sweet or bitter lasting memories. We hate them, miss them, love them, and cry over them, and sometimes we wish we never collided into them. Attempting to view our lives without their influence is like eating a Mexican food without spices, can you imagine it! The honest truth is we fear those few individuals because no matter how advanced a human being becomes, change is the most difficult thing to accept, at first. As we go through our individual lives and create our own painting of our lives, it is as if those individuals tookthe brush from our hands and re-shape us in way we didn’t see it possible. Those changes, bad or good, petrify us to our cores. They change our career choices, our faith, our beliefs, our personalities, our ambitions, and our self-worthiness even. On the other hands, we run into the others, you know those individuals that dull our senses, lackluster, monotonous in their dealings. They are those we most often don’t remember two or five years down the road, because they only left the micro-impact in “who you are” or “who I would become.” But doesn’t it get you to think of your own impact on them or others, which one were you to them? For a moment there, you don’t feel so insignificant or powerless do you!
Well this is a reflective piece of one’s life and others interjection with it. It’s about the web of life (yeah I watched spider-man), it’s about cause and effect, it’s about one individual causing a change, it’s about why some of us volunteer, it’s about setting example for your siblings. It is merely meant to make a person more intoned to their surroundings; have an awareness toward their own actions, not to be scared of life and letting our barriers and guards down to even experience pain. Can’t appreciate the good things if you never allowed yourself to experience the bad ones.”
Jan. 30, 2007
It’s Tuesday, and as odd it may seem, for me it’s the first official day of work week…Monday, I spend about 9 to 10 hours at my externship, doing a lot of work for no monetary gains but the experience, so it doesn’t count as work day…Afterward I hit the gym so that I don’t ache the next day from standing those long hours…And the class I join at the gym is really fun I don’t notice the hour passing…Of course I get to hang out with my friend while shaking everything I got like my life depended on it…So back to Tuesday, it’s not so bad to start your work week on this day, you almost feel like you got five days of work and you realize oh it’s only 4 days of work…So for now it’s just sipping cappuccino and enjoying the slow pace of the morning…For all the workers out there, have a nice day…bee bye, Khadra
Guru
Last evening I decided to check out the recently released “Guru” in theater…I am not going to spoil the story for those people out there who would like to watch this movie…Definitely this movie is worth watching…The performances by Abhishek Bachchan and Aishwarya rai are wonderful and highlight of the movie…This was a movie with a sense and purpose to it…Watching this film one can feel inspired, motivated, or entertained for that matter…If there is an interest and a desire to see a good bollywood movie this would be your movie to check out…bee bye
Alone vs. Lonely
Often people interchange these two words as if they mean the same thing…Alone to me means by yourself (physical being) where as lonely refers to more to an emotional state…A person can be one without being the other…For example, you are hanging out with someone but you feel so lonely or vice-vursa you are alone but not lonely…Which one are we afraid of more being alone or being lonely?…Is it better to be with someone and feel lonely still than to be without anyone and lonely?…I think being able to define our feelings more accurately might help us heal better…bee bye
Jury Duty
I have been thinking about jury duty a lot lately and can’t really know for sure why…I have never served on one before but I am a citizen and probably would be summoned some day…My mother has been several times now never chosen though…But i have always been curious about what it would feel like having such a major responsibility on one’s shoulder…Trying to make the effort to not judge a person on their persona in court but more by the evidence provided to you…Putting your trust in someone who you don’t know telling you that this is the evidence as accurate as possible or un-bias…Sitting there trying to decipher whether someone is telling you the truth or lying…I mean how good are we really at reading people these days!!…Would I be the juror who is making sure we make the best decision or the one who makes the decision quickly!….Anyone served on a jury before, would love to hear about what it felt like, if they wish to share it…bee bye
CSI
Las Vegas: I have watched this show since it’s second season and now it’s almost on it’s six season…Amazing show and great cast…Love Grissom, what not to love, who is the lead CSI…He’s fascination with bugs and his inability to understand human emotions, yet his driving motivation to speak for those who can’t speak for themselves…He inspires greatness in men and definitely is pleasing to the eyes of the ladies…Of course the ladies also have worrick and nick who aren’t that shabby to look at but to me it’s Grissom all the way…This CSI is dark whether it is the set or the criminals we run across into…They have the most intelligent crime committing individuals but also the least character association of all the three CSI…Always looking forward to it.
MIAMI: I must admit, i didn’t like this show in the beginning…There was this CSI “Speedle” or something which really annoyed me…But these last few months I have actually been catching up on the show, and I must say I have grown fond of the show…They don’t have the greatest or even the smartest criminals, but they provide the audience with humanity along with their main characters…You get to see Horatio’s relationships, his devotion to his family, and his undeniable support to his team…You see Cally dealing with her father’s alcoholism and her support to him despite his problems…Although I don’t know why Horatio’s delivery of his lines have changed over the years and really can become annoying at times…I definitely enjoy her the most out of all the CSI ladies because she is just not only smart or great at her job but because she is warm and always give the benefit of the doubt to everyone she meets…If you haven’t had chance to see this CSI definitely should check it out.
New York: This CSI is combination of both other CSI and therefore wouldn’t say much about it.
Singles and In-Relationship
Probably many of us, males and females, have been in a situation were they were friends with someone who is dating or had single friends while they were dating…It is one of the hardest time on any friendship, when two friends don’t have the same relationship status, because it always seems the friendship takes a back burner to everything else…It isn’t the fault of anyone really or one person per say but i think people have this idea that one relationship must suffer for the other to flourish…Any friend worth their salt would definitely understand the time consuming efforts put on during the beginning of romantic-relationship and wouldn’t fault their friend’s for pulling the disappearing act…But it gets tricky after the beginning period…It seems, speaking from personal experience, that as a Somali we tend to keep our friends and our significant other separate…The common person doesn’t make the effort to introduce different personals from other aspect of their life to each other…Hanging out and arranging activities for your friends and your mate can eliminate any friction between those two sides…of course it can also go the opposite way, they can dislike each other and then what to do…But one wouldn’t really know until one tries it and if it doesn’t work it isn’t the end of the world…it would be exactly as before, your friends resent you for spending too much time with him/her and your mate would think you listen to them too much…Throwing away a cultivated friendship is awful and one should try to find solutions to problem not just ignore it and keep the “status quo.”
15 minutes of Fame somali style
This past Saturday I was chilling with my friends at their home and having fun…And then my friend decided to show me this “funny video” on you-tube…I have only recently heard of you-tube, i know you thinking “where have you been”, but it is hard to keep up with these changing cyber times…I mean one website is the rage for all couple of months and suddenly the herd is moving along to the next best thing…Anyways, back to the story, my friend shows me this video called “walking it out” or something like that…The video begins with this two Somali females, you can’t guess their age at first, because the video picture quality isn’t great and the girls have their faces covered…They start speaking, in something suppose to sound like Somali, but hardly clear or understandable in my opinion…And then the mayhem begins sorry i meant the dancing begins…It was funny i would admit I had chuckled and they weren’t bad dancer or re-created the choreography from the video accurately…But I couldn’t help but shake my head at our Somali youth especially the girls…I have yet in that place to see a Somali female, whether dancing hip-hop music or shaking her ass to “niiko” music, show her face while getting her 15 minutes of fame on the cyber world…It seems the battle rages on between being famous and being Somali subject to certain rules…To our young girls, does it really matter more what Somali people would think of you seeing your video on you-tube to what Allah sees you do…I think if a woman gets the guts to put a video like the one I recently saw they should also have the guts to put their faces to it…Only super-heroes can hide their faces and identities…The 15 minutes fame seekers aren’t in the same league.
