For the last several years, I have been thinking of making a short film piece, haven’t though decided whether it would be documentary or fiction or reality…Now i have found my camera woman to help me with this project, I have to figure out the format and style of this piece…I can’t figure out yet why I am undertaking this project or even considering it for several years now…Maybe I wanted to be an director at one time in my childhood and now as an adult, I am trying to manifest those dreams into some form of a reality…I think if I am able to do this project and be satisfied with it for myself, I believe it allow my adventurous-self to come out more and play…Next project after this, insha allah, I hope would be sky-diving, now i can’t wait for it….Bee bye till next time, Khadra
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Settling Down
Well it’s Monday evening and I am still at work at 7:18 pm, so in these last few minutes before 8 pm I felt the need to write something down..So I thought for this time out I would talk about Marriage…If you are like myself, someone who is from a country in Africa and past the age of 20 years old, you have been under siege for a time now…It’s weird how strangers would ask me about my marriage or the lack of it and whether there are a potentials or not as opposed to my family (including uncles and aunts of both sides) leaving me to my own decisions…Last night, I was watching a film called “just married” and the movie was about two people who are involved in arrange marriage and their effort to get to know each others while on their honeymoon…Some people are lucky in that they get married without knowing each other and once they know each other they are compatible and work well together…And then there are those who get married thinking they know each other and they have no clue and their true personalities come out in the marriage…So i did a reach trying to figure out what is the best way to make a marriage succeed through Islamic means and others…In my Islamic research part, I was able to find the women’s role in a marriage and the type of the relationship she should aim to have with her husband…It didn’t give me an idea of what things would be good things to look for in a mate when making this serious commitment…I have found a book called “Falling in love for all the Right Reasons” written by the founder of e-Harmony, those in America would be familiar with that name, which the author discuses dimensions a person can use to determine whether a person is the right “soul-mate”…Alright those of you snicking at that term just simmer down…I thought it was really a good read, things for those of you, who are looking forward to getting married to get ideas of things that are important for them to discuss with their potential mate…If any of my readers have been through choosing a mate or anyone considering settling down and they have a list they use, I would definitely like to hear from real people and real experiences…take care, bee by Khadra
Fashion or Necessity
As I am finished with my workout routine and walked into the shower area, I had a thought pop into my mind, which had nothing to do with exercising…I have heard of and seen few women who go to college or university until a husband-to-be comes to whisks them away…What I am talking about are women, who are going to school not because they plan to have careers or work in professional job, but rather because they are not married yet and everyone else is a student, why not them too!!! Is the society pressuring these women, who aren’t interested in education, to pursue an academic life, so that when they say “oh I am a student” and not “oh I am just working and staying at home till I get married” people look at them more favorably!!! Are women seeking education for their own personal improvement and advancement as individuals or they really trying to occupy their time until they get married and then just be stay-at-home wives or mothers?…Is education looked upon as a necessity or fashionable pursuit?…If the intention of a woman for going to college is just to keep herself busy until she is married, should she really put herself in a financial debt so she can just to put a facade?
bee bye Khadra
Good Week
Well ladies and Gentlemen, I am having one of those best week ever…Well let me see, I don’t think I could ever say with absolute certainty because I don’t remember much of the past and don’t know anything about future…But at this moment of time, this week is a good week, and I am thankful for that…Often we worry about not having enough time to everything, but when you really sit down and think about, how many days of your own life span do you remember?…I have experienced changes these last few days which really taught me things about myself and what I want in life…And I wanted to say I am thankful for the experience and glad of what it taught me about myself…Till next time, bee bye Khadra
Relax and Tell me your troubles
Last night, as I was watching an episode of Law and Order, a thought occurred to me…I wonder if my insurance covers a visit to a psychiatric doctor?…Trust me I am not a person that bottles things up inside as a matter of a fact I talk too much or anyone I know would say so…It’s just that at times depending on those people you know and regularly speak to your conversation gets limited and I feel stifled…There are certain things I can’t talk to about certain people, maybe cause they wouldn’t get it or they would take it the wrong way…There is something interesting for me to speak with someone who doesn’t know anything about you and therefore you would be free to let sides of you not expressed before to come out…I am also fascinated by how a person of that profession would conduct their study into ones’ psychs…what are the questions to ask? what are the words to listen for? how to get someone to open to you?…I mean I learned from my own personal experience ones doesn’t talk to two people in the same manner to get results, you have to adjust yourself to the other person’s speed in order to get to know things about them…Who psychiatrist determines what is the best approach? is it instinctive and profiled in a very detailed manner before your first session?…If I was to have one super power it would have been the ability to read people’s mind although i see often those who have those power on TV tend to go crazy and live reclusive lifestyles…Maybe I wanted the ability to read the minds of only those I wanted to know what they were thinking of and not everyone…Thinking of it now, I think that’s why I talk too much, because I want the people to know what I am thinking no filtered no hold backs of any kind…But as I got older and my circle of acquaintances began to dwindle, my range of conversation begins to change too…And maybe it is that very reason which makes me today wonder why not go to psychiatrist and see where it leads!….Khadra
Las Vegas
Recently my sister, two friends, and I went to Las Vegas for Spring break…It wasn’t planned destination, as a matter of fact we were considering Atlanta, as a destination for our spring break…it was the first spring break we actually got away all of us, we always had either work or school obligations to keep us inbound during the week off…But as my sister searched we saw las Vegas package with a reasonable price and we thought great something different to do…Well having my mom give us concent to go for 4 days to las Vegas wasn’t difficult as one would anticipate for Somali parent…The it was a whole different story for everyone else we told our plans too…Responses ranging from “oh nice joke” to “what would you do there” or “it’s sin city”…But Las Vegas is much more than that as we learned from our trip…One must go there with an open mind and clear idea of what they want to do…I mean yeah you can sit at a slot machine for hours and gamble, but there are other choices too…We walked down the las vegas strip and saw New York, Egypt, Paris, and Italy…And it was amazing, it was like walking into a different world from one block to another…We saw fantastic water shows and a definite must see for anyone who visit Vegas…We saw architectural beauties and phenomenal scence and took a ride on a gondela while in italy…It was one of those trip for life and we shouldn’t judge book by it’s cover or in this case a city by it’s reputation…Khadra
Having a Blog
I am an impulsive person by nature, been working on curbing my enthusiasm, but hasn’t yet succeeded in it…But seriously what was I thinking when i was signing up for blog…oh i remember, my friend shafi’s blog, which by the way is still going strong…You know i felt i had things to say and finally i have a place to say them, but now after the first initial rush, my life is either running for boring and slow or I just don’t work well having things i think i want…I mean i think i know the purpose of me writing this piece, I am hoping by some miracle, I would inspire myself to come here daily and post things…Maybe the issue is that I don’t look at my life as analytically as much as when I was younger…Maybe life is zooming by me too fast and I can’t catch glimpses of things i used to notice before…Or is it that I am afraid if i reflect too much I might see things I don’t like about myself!…I have always been my harshest critic, many people are too, but i have always hoped I can improve myself at any give time if I have the desire…So hopefully i would change my lazy-writing attitude and utilize this blog i created for myself….Khadra
My Life My Rule
As I sit here today, I can’t help but think about “words of wisdom’s” a phrase uttered so easily on so many lips…They are huge parts of our lives so integrated into everything we say and do that we sometimes don’t realize we using them or passing it along to the next generations…I had to stop and think which “words” I heard over my lifetime span which affected me and remained on my mind…Does our experience in life makes us more attached to certain “sayings” than others?…Those of us, who had a bitter life experiences possibly, are prone to those “words of wisdom” dripping with cynical believes…On the other end of the spectrum, we have those who had the protected life and repeat the “words of wisdom” they heard from their parents and those of familial connections to themselves…And there are those few who take the “words of wisdom” and give them a unique interpretation for those words spoken so long ago…I couldn’t stop thinking about what would be those few precious words I would leave to those who follow me…Those words weren’t just any words they would be my legacy my own achievement of immortality in the minds of those to come after me…And then it hit me, my words of wisdom is actually there are no words of wisdom…Wisdom is gained through experiencing and living and no one can prepare someone else for those things…My words of wisdom “live your life, have a rainbow of emotions and accept each one of them into your soul, and ultimately it isn’t as bad as we thought we had it”…Those would not be the words on my tombstone, but they would be the words I hope I am remembered to live by…My words of wisdom are my formula for life…The End
Jan. 30, 2007
It’s Tuesday, and as odd it may seem, for me it’s the first official day of work week…Monday, I spend about 9 to 10 hours at my externship, doing a lot of work for no monetary gains but the experience, so it doesn’t count as work day…Afterward I hit the gym so that I don’t ache the next day from standing those long hours…And the class I join at the gym is really fun I don’t notice the hour passing…Of course I get to hang out with my friend while shaking everything I got like my life depended on it…So back to Tuesday, it’s not so bad to start your work week on this day, you almost feel like you got five days of work and you realize oh it’s only 4 days of work…So for now it’s just sipping cappuccino and enjoying the slow pace of the morning…For all the workers out there, have a nice day…bee bye, Khadra
